What If Not .. ? - J4U -

I hope this is not a dream ..
I hope this is a dream ..
I don't want you by my side ..
I want you by my side ..
I must not let go ..
I have to let go ..
I should not think about you ..
I should think about you ..
My heart points to the dark ..
My heart points to the bright ..
What should I do now .. ?
Or .. Just stay there .. & Watch what's its decision ..
And listen .. What it says ..
Will I get the accurate answer .. ?
What if not .. ?
What am I suppose to do ..